Hello my mental health – conscious babes,
It has been quite some time since you’ve heard from me. I “committed” (I say committed loosely because I didn’t quite go through with it) to 12 days of blogmas, and got to day six before calling it quits for the year. I’m surprisingly not too hard on myself bout this, because there were other things in my life that really needed my attention. The most important thing being my mental health.
My mental health took a plunge at the end of the year, and it kept plummeting down until very recently. I tried to do everything I could to help myself, but in the end, the only thing that has successfully pulled me out of the deep dark hole that is depression, is persistence. With the help of my friends and family (and I hate to say this, but with constant self-care, even when I didn’t even want to be awake), I stand here before you with, what’s that? ..a smile? A SMILE! I am honestly feeling so much better, I’m taking care of myself again, and I have the will and drive to go, do, and be. Having said this, I’m here to reclaim my blog, and transform it into something that fits the version of me that stands here today. I’ve changed, and I’m certain that my content is about to change as well.
So, what’s new, you may ask?
Since we’re here, I figured we’re long overdue for a catch-up, so I’d love to hang out and chat for a bit. The start of 2018 saw me unmotivated and unenergized, and I knew that the best weapon for this job was creativity. So what did I go and do? I got a bunch of water colors, acrylic paints, sketch books, and canvases – and your girl WENT TO TOWN. I have zero experience with painting, but something about mixing goopy colors on a crisp white canvas really drew me in. The process of painting is almost meditative, and so extremely different to the other ways I have of expressing myself. Writing down how I feel will give you a crisp and clear image of what’s going on, but painting my soul onto a blank canvas has allowed me to reach so deep inside me that I pull out emotions that have been buried years ago. The end result of a painting will never truly portray what’s going on in my mind, but the journey will reveal so much to me. Thus, I’ve become a full-time (a.k.a unemployed because I can’t legally work here yet) amateur color smearer. How lovely!
I’ve also started to create a routine in my morning which has been fantastic for me. I meditate, eat a yummy breakfast (without counting calories or carbs, can you imagine?), and I even find the time each morning to journal. I recently made a video about this, so please check it out if that’s something that interests you. Also, while you’re there, subscribe to my youtube channel because I’m so stoked on creating content on there!
That’s all from me for today, but I’m SO excited to be back.